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Verdena's Life Story, Part 1 (VP-121106-01)

dahungwho'-dung'
do:ng'

a long time ago

na:ła'-xw
'unt'e-ne'in
sa'a:n-ne'in
mitsiłting'ne:s
ya:ma
hospital
ch'idinch'a:t-me'-łe:na:wh-ding

it used to be a lot different, there used to be an army hospital sitting there (place where sick people live, for soldiers)

hayah-dung'
do:ng'
whe
hayah
se:la:n
haya:ł

at that time, I was born

nahding
me:nundiy
siwhdahwh
hay
whunchwing
ya'dehłts'e-ne'in-ding
haya:ł
hay
whichwo:-ne'in
haya:ł
hay
whis'-ne'in
ta:q'in
ya'dehłts'e-ne'in
haya:ł

two years passed, in the place where my mother lived, and then my poor old grandmother, my poor old uncle, the three of them [including my mother] were living there, and then

hayah
whe
miq'it
ch'e:whsit-sile'n
haya:ł

there as for me at that point [it was like] I woke up from a sleep [became conscious, as a young child]

hayah
niwhong-xw-q'ut
ya:de'idilts'e'
mine:jixomił
'aya'de:ne'

we lived there in a good way. after a while, they said,

"do:xolin
ch'in
ts'isday"
hay
whunchwing
xontah-ding"

"they say she can't live at the house," my mother

"ch'in
'ung'
yixowa:tiliwh
hay
do:k'iwile'"
hay
whichwho
"hayi-ma:n
do:xolin
ts'isday."
haya:ł

"the old woman's welfare check (they distribute it to her)," my grandmother, "for that reason, she can't stay." and then,

hayi-ma:n
na:lte'
hay
te:s'in
ch'itehsyay
haya:ł
yo:w-xw
...

for that reason she went off looking for work, and then way over there ...

...
na:'uste'
haya:ł
whe:-'e:n
we:da'
xontah-ding
hay
whichwo
ch'iwhinehłyiw
haya:ł
xoma:lyo'
ła:n
k'isdiyun
na:wa:-ne'in
hayah-ding

... she worked. as for me, I stayed at home, my grandmother raised me, and then her friends, a lot of elderly people used to be alive at that time.

haya:ł
hayi
na:y
'aht'ing
ya'ne'indil
ya'de'ilwa:wh

and then, with them all they (used to) come over, they (used to) have conversation

daywho'
whe:da'ay-na:de'e'a'

I always listened to these things

whił-ya'whe'ilik
simiwhGiy
din
din
da'n

they told me things even when I was very young

haya:ł
mine:jixomił
q'ut
we:kya:w-ch
sile'n-mił
'aya'de:ne'

and then, when I got a little bigger, they said [the old people]

"ting
do:ng'
ła:n-xw
'unt'e
ch'ohłts'it"
haya:ł
do:ng'
hay-de:di

"she knows a lot of things, that one"

"de
na:mitl'a'ding
'aht'ing-xw-'unt'e
xoł-ya:xowidilik-te
xoł-dinił'a'
yasdilchwe'n-te"

"from this time on, we're going to tell her everything, we will teach her"

haya:ł-q'ut
daywho'
'aht'ing-xw-'unt'e
whił-ya'xowilik
k'iye-de'
na:łiwung
ch'ine'i'naw

and then after that, they would tell me about everything, and then the next day another one (elder) would come back again

haya:ł
daywho'
gya'
whił-ch'ixwe'ilik
haya:ł
diywho'
k'iwa:wine'-tah-ne'in
daywho'

and then, a variety of things she tells me about. and then things like laws ...

'aht'ing-xw-'unt'e
'o:yłts'it
hayi-mił
haya:ł

... everything I learned, from that

k'iwinya'n-ya:n-q'ut
xiniwidye:wh
wha:ne
'owhts'it-ne'in
xo'ji

I used to only speak Indian language

mine:jixomił
'aya'de:ne'
"de
do:ng'
...

after a while they [the old people] said ...

"'a:k'iwilaw
ne:ł'in-te"

"now you've got to go to school" (look at papers)

haya:ł-q'ut
ya'witehłte:n
'a:ya'kilaw
hayahujit
ting
xwe:ya:ne:sgit
hay

and then they took me and filled out papers, and then I was afraid of ...

hay
yima:n'dil-q'
wha:ne
ya'xine:wh
hay
k'ił-dinił'a'-ya'iłchwe
haya:ł

... the people that are teaching, who only speak English. and then,

hayi-heh
q'ut
te:se:yay

in spite of that, I went

haya:ł
'a:ya:whił-ch'ide:ne'
"yehwinyahwhił-te
do:ng'
nahł'its
haya:ł
tiwinyahwhił-te"

and then they told me, "you'll get on the bus (every day), and then you'll go off"

haya:ł
q'ut
te:'iwha:wh

and then I always leave (for school) and then something ...

ya'who:de'iłxit
haya:ł
do:
xiniwhye:wh
'ayne'iwhse'n
xo:'-yey
'a:dinowhdine'-n

they (teachers) ask me questions, and I never say nothing. I always think I might say the wrong thing

mine:jixomił
we:kyaw
sil'en
q'ut

after a while I got older

dink'i-ding
xowh
do:ng'

it must have been fourth grade

je:nah
te:se:yay
sile'n
haya:ł
xo'ji
daywho'
'o:dwhe-tah
'e:ng'
q'ut
'o:yłts'it
haya:ł

I was getting high grades, some things I really learned well, like reading

ch'ixo:de'iłxit
"ya:ky'ohliwh!"
ch'ide'ine'

they always ask a question and say "raise your hand!"

do:-ya:k'iwhliwh
do:-me:diwhdin
ya:k'iwhliwh
'ayne'iwhsin

I never raised my hand, I didn't want to raise my hand. I always thought ...

"xwe:di
xowh
'a:de:n'-te?"

"what am I going to say?"

haya:ł
"do:-tah
do:-xoling
miq'eh
xo'ji
'a:diwhne"

and then "maybe I won't be able to say what I mean"

haya:ł
mine:jixomił
q'ut

and then

minłung-miwah-na:ła'
na:se:ya'-mił
'a:ya'de:ne'

when I was eleven, they said

"xwe:
do:ng'
'unt'e
nimit'
gya'
nikya:w!"

what's wrong with you, your belly looks big!

ya:whił-ch'ide'ine'
haya:ł

they always tell me, and then

me:lah
'a:ya'de'ine'

some people they always say,

"wilq'ah
xoling"

"(you're) getting fat"

"nimit'
xohsle'
xoling"

"you've got a belly all of a sudden"

haya:ł
hay
whichwo:-ne'in
'e:ng'
'a'de'ine'

and then my poor old grandmother always says

"hay
'e:ng'
do:ng'
ła:n
daywho'
niwhong-xw
ch'ita:n"

"as for her, she eats a lot, really well"

haya:ł
do:ng'
hayi-mił
xomit'
xohsle'

"that's why her belly has gotten (that way)"

haya:ł
mine:jixomił
ya'xo:ditehłxit
'a:ya'de:n'

and then they ask me, they say,

"niłilyo'
xoling
'ung?"

"do you have a boyfriend?"

haya:ł
"daw"
de:ne'
whe
'e:ng'
do:ng'
...

and then, I said "no, as for me ...

...
xixiyx-tah
do:
hayi-xw
niwhsing

... I don't think about things like boys

haya:ł
mine:jixomił
k'iye
ch'iwho:diwiłxit
dungwho'.
'a:whił-ch'ide:n'

and then again someone asks me. they say to me, ...

"xo'osday-'ung
ch'in
do:-chwing-no:'ilehł?"

"didn't a man ever bother you?" they said

haya:ł
ts'eh
ła'ay-xw
q'ut
do:-'o:yłts'it
hay
diydi-wung
xowh
'a:ya:whił-ch'ine

and then I just can't figure out why they're asking me this question

xo'osday
diydi-wung
chwing-yiwho:'ilehł-teł
xola:n

why would a man bother me?

haya:ł
"daw,
de:n
dungwho'
do:-chwing-who:le:l"

so then I said no, nobody bothered me

haya:ł
hayi-xw
'ahdiyaw
sa'a-ji
sile'n-mił

and that's the way it happened, and after a short time went by

mine:jixomił
xutł'e'-dung
ch'e:whsit
xwe:di
gya'
'a:wht'e
'aht'ing-ding
diwe:ch'a:t-e:
xola:n

I woke up in the morning, and it turned out I was hurting all over my body,

ła'ay-xw-ts'eh
de:-xw
no:na'dits'iw
do:-whiłdiniwił'a'

suddenly, I couldn't turn over in bed, I couldn't do it

haya:ł
hay
whichwo:-ne'in
yehch'iwinyay
'a'de:ne'

and then my poor old grandmother came in and said,

"yina:sindiqe'-te
'a:k'iwilaw-yinehł'e:n
te:sinya-te!"

"get up out of bed, go to school!"

haya:ł
"daw"
de:ne'
ła'ay-xw-ts'eh
ting
diwhch'ah
'ułkyo:we-ding
ła'ay-xw
diwhch'ah-ts'iw

and then "no" I said, suddenly I feel sick all over

na:whiky'a:ng'ay-me:w-xw-ne'in-ts'eh
'ugeh
'ah'ting-ding

also under my arms it hurts all over

haya:ł
ch'ite:syay

and then she went out

hay
whunchwing
'a:xoł-ch'ide:ne'
mine:jixomił
yehch'iwinyay
haya:ł
'a'de:n'
"xwe:di
'ung?"

she told my mother. after a while she [mother] came in and she said, "what's wrong?"

'a'de:ne'
"ting
do:ng'
diwhch'ah-ts'iw
ła'ay-xw
q'ut"
haya:ł

I said "I feel really sick all of a sudden" and then

'a:xoł-ch'ide:ne'
"dahung-who'-dung-ding
'a:nohłde:ne'"

she [mother] told her [grandmother], "I already told both of you a long time ago"

"k'ima:w-ch'iłchwe
'e:ng'
'a'de:ne'
xono'k'int'a:ts'-te"
haya:ł
"daw"
dohne'

"the doctor said they're going to cut her open, and then you always say 'no'"

haya:ł
hay
whichwo:-ne'in
"daw"
ch'ide'ine'

and then my grandmother always said "no"

"do:-xoling
xono'k'it'us
ya'xosohłwe'-n"

"they can't cut her open, they might kill her"

haya:ł
hay
whunchwing-ne'in
xoh
xoje:-de'inch'ah
haya:ł

and then, my poor old mother, she always gets angry

mine:jixomił
hay
whis'in-ne'in
'ade:n'

after a while my poor old uncle said,

"whe
do'ong
q'ut
wunyay'a:n-te
'aht'ing"
haya:ł

"me, I will pay for it all"

hayi-heh
"daw"

even then, "no" [said grandma]

haya:ł
hay
(diwh--)
diwe:ch'ah
hujit
haya:ł

and then I got sick, and so

me:ya'wing'e:tł'-ding-me'
k'iste:n
wha
no:ya'ning'a:n
...

they put a bed in the sitting room for me

...
me'-łe:na:wh-ding
hayahujit
haya:ł

in the living room, and then,

ne:se:te:n
xonsehł-ding

I lay down where it was warm

mine:jixomił
(axołch'i-)

after a while (started to say something else)

meq'it-dahwing'a'
sile'n-mił
...

when it became late afternoon ...

yitse'ni-wing'a'-ji
sile'n-mił
na:na:sehłxoy'
tse:lin

when it got a little later in the afternoon I vomited blood

yo:w-xw
no:k'iningyo:wh
ła'ay-xw
q'ut
me:tsah-xosin-xw
tse:lin
wha:ne

It came pouring out all over, a lot of blood

haya:ł
q'ut
ts'eh
ła'ay-xw
q'ut
ting
diwhch'ah
ła'ay-xw
na:na:sehłxoy'
yina:na:sehłxoy'

I was so sick all over, I kept vomiting a little bit all the time

ninch'ing'-xw-ne'in
'aht'in-ding
sile'n
haya:ł

it got all over the floor

"xolisch"
ya'de:ne'
keh

"hurry up!" they said

keh
me'iyt'us-wing'a'
nohno:ng'ay-ding
hayah
miningxa't'e:n'
ts'isday
nahł'its
q'ung
na'ay

they're building a sawmill close to us, and the boss lives there, and he has a new car

hay
xoch'ing'
dahxodiwing'a:n
xowh
do:ng'
'a:yaxoł-ch'ide:ne'

they (my mother and my uncle) ran over to him, and I guess they told him

ła'ay-xw
"xolisch"

right then, "hurry up!"

"meya:de:didin
ch'itina:wh
dahwilahł-ch'ing'
k'ima:w-ch'iłchwe
mi-ch'ing'"

"we have to take her to Eureka to the doctor"

haya:ł
q'ut

and then

xat-do'ong
newha:n
no:nła:t
haya:ł
ya'whiłte:n
hay
whik'isdiya:n
xowilchwin-ne'in

quickly he pulled right up and stopped and then he picked me up, my stepfather (it was actually the boss, Raymond Spaulding)

hayahujit
hayah
me:ne:q'-me'
dahya'whiłte:n
nahł'its
hayahujit

and then they put me there in the back of the car, and then

whe
naya'k'iwiłxut'
hayahujit

they covered me up

miłto:y
no:ya'ninta:n
k'iye
na:na:sehłxoy'-de'

they put a can beside me in case I had to throw up again

'a:whił-ch'ide:ne'
"hayah-me'
na:nułxoy'-ne'"
haya:ł
"q'ut
do'ong'"

they said to me, "you throw up in there," and then, "okay!"

hayahujit
q'ut
tehłda:wh
xolisch
ła'ay-xw
q'ut
wilda:l
na:miwina-tah

and then it took off real fast, at once it was moving fast, around (the corners)

hayah-ding'
ting
'istiK'its

at that time it [the road] was very narrow

ning'a'-ne'in
dahwilahł-ch'ing'
ting
ła:n
nana:lq'ot

it went along to Eureka with a lot of turns

haya:ł
xolisch
wilda:l
ła'ay-xw
niwhon-ding
'a:'uneh-ts'eh

and then it was running fast, I could really feel it,

łah-xw
te:xits'
sile'n
yiwidin
dahwilahł-ding
no:nła:t

it started flying along, finally it stopped in Eureka

hay
meya:dincha'a:t
q'a-'unt'e-ding

at the place where hospital was

haya:ł
hayah
ch'e:-ya'whiniłte:n
haya:ł
yeh-ya'whiłte:n

and then there they took me out (of the car)(lying down) and they took me inside (lying down)

xoxa:-ya'xe:ne:wh
hay
k'ima:w-ch'iłchwe

they called to the doctor

ch'iningyay
'a'de:ne'
ła'ay-xw

he came and he said

"do:-xoling
(ey
we)
do:-xoling
..."

"it's impossible"

"sa'a-ji
xoliwh
na'tidye:wh
hay-de:di
nahding-tah
wha:ne
mina:na:sdiwahłtse:tł'
xola:n"

"she seems like she's only going to be breathing a little while longer, it looks like only about two more hours from now"

"hay-de:di
xo:'a:diyaw-e:-te"

"this person will die"

haya:ł
xolisch
ya'whitehłte:n

so then they took me real fast (lying down)

hayahujit
'aht'in-ding
whiq'et-xw
ch'iwingwa:s
'e:ng'
do:
whiwung'
xole:n-ne'in

and then they shaved (me) all over my body, I didn't have any hair (to begin with)

haya:ł
ya'whiwingwa:s
haya:ł

they shaved me (the nurses)

yeh-ya'whiłte:n
'a:ya'de:ne'
"ky'ołtuq'!"

they took me in, and they said "count!"

"minłung
'ułtsa:ch'ing'
ky'ołtuq'!"

"count up to ten!"

haya:ł
hay
ting
mina:'iwhliwh

and then I remember that very well, that stands out

dah-we:te'
hayah
haya:ł
diywho'iwh
whinchwiwh
mitis
no:ya'ning'a:n

and then I lay down and they put something over my nose [ether mask]

haya:ł
ky'o:wiłtuq'

and then I started counting

"ła'
,
nahx
,
ta:q'"
'a'de:ne'
hay
wha:ne
minawhliwh
xowh
do:ng'
whikiwingwa'n

I said "one, two, three" and that's the only (thing) I remember, and then I guess I went to sleep

mine:jixomił
ch'e:nawhsit
ting
niwhong-xw
'ungya'
'a:nawhte'-ts'eh
hay
siwhte:n
ła'ay-xw
q'ut

and then, I woke up again, I felt really good, I just felt like lying there, and I lay there, and at once

do:-na:diwhch'ah-ts'eh

I don't hurt anymore

yehch'iwinyay
hay
k'iwut-ya:xolya:n-q'-'a'unt'e
haya:ł
'a'de:ne'

they came in, the person that takes care of you (the nurse), and she said

"xwe:di
'a:nt'e?"
haya:ł
'a:xoł-de:ne'

"how do you feel?" and then I told her,

"de:di
'e:ng'
do:ng'
niwhong-xw
'a:na:niwe:se:t'e'-ts'iw"

"as for right now, I feel really good"

ła'ay-xw
q'ut
da:ywho'-ding-heh
do:
na:diwhch'ah-ts'eh

not nowhere in my body, I don't feel no pain

"do:-me:diwhdin
whino'kit'us!"
haya:ł
whiwung
xwa:nło'

"I don't want surgery!" and then she laughed at me

'a:xoł-ch'iden'

and then she said,

"q'ut
'e:ng'
do:ng'
nino'k'int'a:ts'
hay-de:di
'aht'ing
mindaxe'
'aht'ing
niwhong-xw
'a:niwehst'e'"
haya:ł

The surgery already done! right now it's all finished, everything looks good

"de:di
'e:ng'
łah-xw
na:sintin-te
hay
na:tiya'-te-ma:n"

from now on, you just lay there, so it will heal up

haya:ł

and then

de:xoniwhts'eh
ne:se'n
ła'ay-xw
ts'eh
diwhts'ing'
de
de
na:whiwiloy'

I'm going to roll over (wiggle), I thought. Then I realized I'm all tied up.

whik'ya:ng'ay
me:w
ding-mił
na:mis-xw
whina:t
na:wiloy'
yina:wiloy'

right under my arms here, from there it went all across, around and round

yo:wi-ts'ing'
'ułtsah
na:wiloy'-e:

I saw I was wrapped up as far as my pelvis

haya:ł
xoh
me'dichwit
do:-yidinił'ay

with it (the bandage) I couldn't move

haya:ł
whining'-mina:t
situng
diywho'
xowh
'e:ng'

there seemed to be something wrapped around my face

"diydi
do:ng'
dah-sita:n
de
'e:ng'
hay-de:di?"

"why is this thing sitting here?" I said

haya:ł
'a:ya:xoł-ch'ide:n'
"hay
'e:ng'
do:-na:na:sehłxoy'-de'
minah"

they said, "that is for in case you throw up"

haya:ł
"hayah-me'
nanasiłxoy'-te"
haya:ł

and then "in it you will throw up," and then

"daw,
whe
'e:ng'-ts'eh
ting
niwhong-xw
'a:wht'e."
de:ne'
"do:-xoling
na:na:whxoy'"

"no, I feel good," I said, "I'm not going to throw up."

yo:w-xw
xa'e:na'winta:n-e:
haya:ł
hayah

they took it away over there

siwhte:n
minłung-miwah-na:nah-ding
nayisxa:n-e:
siwhtong-xw
hayah
...

twelve days I was lying there, and I kept laying there ...

...
do:-me:tchwit

... I didn't move

haya:ł
diywho'
do:-wha
yak'iłkit

and then they never give me anything to eat

yeh-whindik'
whiky'a:ng'ay-q'eh
wha:ne

(an IV) was stuck into my arm

haya:ł
hayi-xw
'ahdiyaw
chwola'ding
yisxa:n
whikya:ng'ay
yehwhindik'

five days passed that way, it was in my arm

hay
na:mitł'a'-ding
'a:ya'de:ne'

and then after that they said

"de:da:ng'
k'iwinyun'-te"
haya:ł
diywho'
mito'
yeh-ya'wingxa:n
haya:ł
hay
diywho'

"now you get to eat!" some kind of juice they had on a tray, and then something else ...

dita'n-wilchwe:n
"jello"
'ulye
q'ina'
haya:ł

... (something) thickened, "jello" it's called, and then

hay
wha
no:ya'ningxa:n
haya:ł
tea
q'ina'

then they brought tea for me also

"de:di-ch'ing'
ta:ndina'n-te"
haya:ł

"this here, you drink it"

hay
ta:whdina'n
haya:ł

I did drink it, and then

hay
k'e:ya'n
hay
wha
yeh-ya'wingxa:n
haya:ł
ts'eh
ting
chwing-me:do:whle
haya:ł
ts'eh

I ate what they brought in for me (the jello), and then I still felt hungry

ta'na:n
mitis-ding
me:diwhchwing
'ade:ne'
"ta'na:n
me:diwhchwing"

after drinking (tea) I was still thirsty, I said that I wanted water

"daw"
ya'de:ne'
"hay
'e:ng'
do:-xoling
tundina:n
hay
nino:k'iwit'a:ts'-ma:n
hay-de:di
wha:ne"

"no," they said, "you can't drink (water), because of your operation you can drink only tea"

"do:-ła:n-ts
ta:ndinung-te"

"drink just a little bit"

haya:ł
q'ut
hayi-xw
'a:niwe:se:t'e'
mine:jixomił
yehya'winde:tł'

so that's what I did, and then after a while they came in

'ayade:n'
de:di
do:ng'
niky'a:ng'ay
'undit'a:ts'-te

they said, "we're going to cut it off of you (the bandage)"

hay
me:nitsah-xowinse'n
ya'te:t'a:ts'-ił

they started cutting it (the tape)

ła'
q'is
yitse'n
hayahujit

down one side, and then

whiwung
na:ya'diwiłt'ow
hayi
me:lta'n-ne'in
'aht'in-ding

and then they peeled it off of me, that which was stuck all over

'ugeh-ts'eh
hayi-mił
haya:ł

that hurt bad

hay
mino:k'iwit'a:ts'-ding
na:ła'
meq'itah
na:ya'wiłkyo:s

at the place where the incision is, they laid on another thick bandage

k'ima:w
na:ya'ischwe'n
'a:ya'de:ne'

they put medicine on it, then they said,

"de
do:ng'
de:-q'
'a:nayundil'e:n
na:te:sindiya:-te-ma:n"

"right now, we're doing this to you, because you're going to leave"

yisxun'
de:di
nahding
yisxa:n
na:mitł'a'-ding
'ina:sindiq'e-te
yawe:sing'a'-te

"in two days, you're going to get up, you're going to sit up"

haya:ł
(ts'eh)
'e:ng'
ting
tilte'-xw
yeh-'awht'e
nehwhung
hayah
siwhte:n

it seemed like I was really strong, (while) I was lying there

haya:ł
q'ut
ya:na:ya'whiste:n
'ugeh
ła'ay-qat

and so they pulled me (up) to sit up on the bed, and suddenly, ow!

which'e:k'e'-ne'in
ts'eh
ch'indila:t-e:
ye:sile'n
hay
ya:na:ya'whiste:n

my guts felt like they were going to fall out. then they pulled me up to a sitting position

dah-
dahyawe:se:'a'
k'iste:n
miwah-ch

I sat up at the edge of the bed

haya:ł
'a:ya'de:ne'

and then they told me

yina:sindiq'e-te
ninch'ing'

"you're going to get up on the floor"

te:sinya:-te
hay
k'iste:n
na:mitł'a-ding
'ułtsah

"you're going to walk as far as the end of the bed"

na:na:sindinun-te
de:-ch'ing'
na:ndiya:-te
k'iye
haya:ł

"you turn around at the end of the bed, you return back to where you started"

de-jit
k'e:na:nayesdiltin-te

"and then we're going to help you back up"

na:ne:sintin-te

"you're going back to bed"

haya:ł
ting
ye:-

and then, really ...

...
do:-na:lte'
nehwhung.
haya:ł
q'ut
ya'whitehłte:n

it doesn't appear to be a hard thing to do. And then they started helping me along

ła'ay-xw
q'ut
whits'ine'-ne'in
ts'eh
ła'ay-xw
do:-ya:ta:tł'

all of a sudden what used to be my legs, I couldn't even step on my own

tangwho'iwh
yeh'ułda:s
sile'n
hay
whits'ine'

it's like they were made of cement or something, my legs

diywho'-ma:n
te:se:yay

somehow I started to move my legs

ni-k'iste:n
na:mitł'a'-ding
'ułtsah
ne:yay
diywho'-ma:n

I walked to the end of the bed somehow

hayahujit
de:-xw
nonaya'whinehłte:n
nate:sdiyay

and then at the end of the bed, they turned me around and I went back

ła'ay-xw
ts'eh
q'ut
do:-ya:e:yta:tł'
hay
k'iste:n
michwut
na:ya'whiniłdite:n
je:nah
nayawhiłte:n
nane:se:te:n

I didn't think I could do it. at the side of the bed, they helped me back, and they put me back up there (lying), and I laid back down

hay
na:mitł'a'-ding
k'iye
yisxun'
hayi-xw
'a:na:ya'whilaw

after that the next they did the same thing with me again

hay
na:yisxa:n
'a:ya'de:ne'
de
do:ng'
na:te:sindiya:-te

the very next day they said, "tomorrow you're going to go home."

haya:ł
q'ut
do:ng'
hayahujit
na:te:sdiyay

okay then, so I went home

whixa:ya'ningde:tł'
k'iste:n
ya'iłchwe'n
nahł'its-me:neq'-me'
dah-nane:se:te:n

they came to pick me up (my mother and my uncle), they made a bed in the back of the car, I laid down on it

na:-xontah-ch'ing'
...

back to the house ...

...na:whdiyay-e:
na:ya'whiniłdite:n
hayahujit
xontah-me'
yeh-na:ya'wiłte:n
k'iste:n-me'
no:na:ya'whiniłte:n

... I returned, they brought me back (lying down), and then they brought me back into the house, they put me back in the bed

haya:ł
k'ima:w-ch'iłchwe
'a'de:ne'
"do:-na'way-heh-ne'"

and so the doctor said "don't let her walk around"

"yina'widiqe:-il
ch'iwinying'-ił'-ne'
do:-xoling
'e:ng'
ch'itina:wh"

"she can get up, stand up occasionally, but don't let her walk"

haya:ł
hay
whichwo:-ne'in
q'ut
ts'isdiya:n
haya:ł

my grandmother she was old

min'day'
me'-ch'e'na:wh
sa'a:n-ne'in
yo:w
na:miwina
yitse'n-ding

the outhouse used to be outside, way down around ...

...
ch'e'ina:wh-e:
ch'ite'inawhey
hayah-ch'ing
haya:ł

... she used to go out, she used to go over there

hayi-me:q
yina'iwh'diqe'
ya:'iwh'a'

while she's doing that, I would sit up

mine:jixomił
te'iwha:wh

after a while I start walking along

k'iste:n
na:mitł'a'-ding
'ułtsah

all the way down the bed

de:-xw
no:na'iwhda:wh
na:te'iwhda:wh
hijit
na:ne:'iwhtiwh

I go around it, I walk back, then I go back to bed

do:-'a:ya'ch'o:ne
hay
whe
duxwe:di
'a:wht'e:n

they didn't know what I was doing

mine:jixomił
yeh-ch'i'ina:wh
hay
whunchwing
haya:ł
'a:whił-ch'ide'ine'
q'ut

sometimes every now and then my mother would come in and tell me

"sinting-wha:ne-ne'
digyung"
haya:ł
xoji
whe
na'ke'iłxut'

"you just keep lying here!", she'd pull (the blankets) back up for me

xa'e:na'da:wh-e:
haya:ł
k'iye-de'
yina'iwhdiqe'

then she leaves and then again I get up

k'iye
t'e'iwha:wh
(do:)
do:-ch'o:yahłts'it
hay
'e:ng'

again I'm walking and they don't know it

mine:jixomił
'a:ya'de:ne'
de
do:ng'

after a while they said, "all right ..."

k'ima:w-ch'iłchwe-ch'ing'
na:te:sindiya:-te
haya:ł

"... you're going to go back to the doctor."

"yisxun-de'
na:yuntehsdiltin-te"

"tomorrow we're going to take you back"

haya:ł
mide'-xole:n-mits'o:'
wha:ne
ta:'awhdina'n

and then I could only drink milk,

k'iwewhe'
k'iwilme:ch
haya:ł

and boiled eggs

hay
k'iwidq'ay'
"apple
sauce"
'ulye
'unt'e
k'e'iwha'n

I could only eat ground-up, what they call apple sauce

hayi
wha:ne
ta:q'i-ding
ła'
je:s
na:k'e'iwha'n
haya:ł
ts'eh
ting
te:se:ch'it
ye:sile'n

three times a day I eat the same thing and then I felt, it seemed like I was becoming weak.

haya:ł
hayi-me:q

in the mean time

hay
'a'de:ne'
"nayundiltin-te
--naya:ntesdiltin-te
k'ima:w-ch'iłchwe-ch'ing'"
hayahujit

and then they said "we will take you back to the doctor"

na:ya'whitehłte:n
haya:ł
hayah
'a'de:ne'

so they took me back, and then there he said

"de:de'n
do:ng'
diydi
me'-de:nde'n
k'iwinyun'-te"

"she can eat whatever she wants now"

"diywho'
'unt'e
mito'
wilchwung-xw
ch'inehwa:n-'un'te-tah
wha
k'yohłki-ne'"

"you can feed her stuff that that's like juice"

"diywho'
yineh-taw-tah
na:wt'o:
ky'o:yung'-ne'"

"let her eat stuff like mashed potatoes"

haya:ł
"na'tehłdite'-te"
haya:ł

"she will become strong again" and then,

'a:whił-ch'iden'
"de
na:mitł'a'-ding
ła'ay-q'"

he told me "after this,"

"hay
na:te:sindiya-de'
'a:k'iwilaw-yinehł'e:n"

"when you go back to school"

"ting
na:dil'ing'-ne'.
dungwho'
do:
nimit'
na'nohłkis-heh-ne'"

"watch out. don't let anyone hit you in the belly"

haya:ł
(hayi
xun)
"ła'ay-xw
q'ut
ting
...

"because then suddenly ...

ting
dinch'ah-xw
'a:niwehst'e'-te

"... it will be feeling really sore"

haya:ł
"dungwho'
hayah
nunich'inehłkis-de'
ting
--
ting
nikya:w-xw
'ahdiyah-te
..."

and then "if someone hits you there, it will be really bad"

...
whinist'e'-me:q'
'aht'in-ding
te:wt'a:ts-hit

... inside of my belly, since it had been cut

hayahujit

and then

hay
na:mitł'a'-ding
xontah-ding
na:yda'
haya:ł
ch'ine'ina:wh
'a:k'iwilaw-ch'inehł'e:n-ding-mił
hay
whił-dinił'a'-ch'iłchwe-ne'in

then I stayed at home, and then my teacher came from the school ...

ting
niwhong-xw
'unt'e-ne'in
xo'osday

he was very nice, that man

'a:k'iwilaw
ch'ine'iliwh
haya:ł
'a:whił-ch'ide'ine'

he would always bring papers, then he would always tell me

"de:di
de:-q'
'ulleh-ne'"
haya:ł
q'ut
hayi-xw
'a:'iwhleh
haya:ł

"this, you do it this way" and then I would do it

mixa
na'ne'i'dahwh
chwola'ding
ye'iłxa'-mił
k'iye
na:ła'
ch'ine'iliwh

he would go away again, and then when five days had gone by, he would bring another one

haya:ł
mine:jixomił
q'ut
'a:ya'de:ne'

and then after a while they said,

"de:di
do:ng'
ch'enate:de:tł'-te
'a:k'iwilaw-ya'nehł'e:n"

"okay, time for school to let out"

haya:ł(-ch'in)
ch'iningyay
'a:whił-ch'ide:n
"ningya'-ne'"
haya:ł

and then, I heard,(actually I saw) he came, and he said "come back to school!"

(ła
ła)
ła'
je:s
wha:ne
nondiya'n
'a:k'iwilaw-ne:l'e'n

only one day was left of school

ting
me:yade:diding
ningya:wh
'a:k'iwilaw-ch'inehł'e:n-ding
haya:ł

"we really want you to come to school," and then

"ye'inya'-ne'
xutł'e'-dung'
hay
wildahł-te"

"in the morning you have to get the thing that goes by (the bus)"

haya:ł
q'ut
xutł'e'-dung
yina:sdiqe'
te:se:yay
yehwe:yay

and then in the morning I got up and I went there, I got on

haya:ł
q'ut
mije'e:din
hayi-xwe
łe:n'
school
ya:diliw
'a:k'iwilaw-ya:ne:dil'e:n
dah-łe:nawh
haya:ł

then, so all the kids were sitting up (on the bus), that go to school together

xwa:ya:nł'o'
whiwung
'a:ya'de:ne'

they laughed at me, and they said

"xwe:di-ma:n
ningyay?
de:sxa:n
ła'
wha:ne
de:sxa:n
do:ng'
ch'e:na'te:de:tł'"

"why did you come today, only one day left? today everybody leaves."

haya:ł
'a:den'
hay
do:ng'
'a:whił-ch'ide:ne'
"hay
'a:k'iwilaw-ya:ne:dil'e:n-ding
(dimixung)
miningxa't'e:n'
ch'ino:ya'-ne'"

and then I said, "it was him, the principal (boss of the school), that told me (to come)"

haya:ł
ting
wung
xwa:ya:nło'
haya:l

and then they all laughed

yeh-whe:ya'
hay
'a:k'iwilaw-ya:ne:dil'e:n-ding
haya:ł

and then I went into the classroom

hayah
k'iye
whiwung
ło'-xiwinse'n
'a:ya'de:n'

there again everybody started laughing at me, and they said

"do:
minłung
'a:k'iwilaw
ch'inehł'e:'n
...

"she didn't even go to school ...

...
sa'ayey
haya:ł
xwe:di-xit
de:sxa:n
hijit
ch'iningyay

... for a long time, why is she only coming today?"

haya:ł
hay
miningxa't'e:n'
'a'de:n'

and then the principal said

"do:-chwing-xo:tle:l-heh!
hay
'e:ng'
do:ng'
de:sxa:n
q'ut
ch'iningyay
haya:ł
...

"don't bother her, as for her, she came today ...

...
'a:k'iwilaw
ch'inehł'e:n-te
haya:ł
xowa
yundilkyo:s-te
'aht'ing

... she will go to school, and then we're going to give out the papers"

"hay
mitis
ya'winde:tł'
xowh
'o:ya:widilts'it-te"

"that way we will know if you passed"

haya:ł
ło'-xiwinse'n
haya:ł

and then they started laughing

me:lah
'a:ya'den'

some of them said

"hay
'e:ng'
do:ng'
do:-xoling
wa'na:wh
k'iye
nana:ła'-ch'ing'
hay
'e:ng'"

"she's not going to go to the next one, she's going to stay in this one (class) again"

"do:
ch'inił'e:n-ne'in
do:
ch'ohłts'it
hay
'e:ng'
daywhe'eh"

"she wasn't studying, she doesn't know anything, that one"

haya:ł
q'ut

and then

ła'-je:s
hayah
whe:da'
haya:ł

all day I stayed there, at school, and then

me:lah
niwhong-xw
whi-ch'ing'
yayxe:ne:wh
hay
mije'e:din

some of them talked to me nice, those kids

łe:n
'a:k'iwlaw
ya'ne:dil'e:n
me:lah

some of them I had been in school with

yayxine:wh-ne'in
k'iwinya'a:n-q'
haya:ł
hay
ya:te'idilwa:wh

some of them talked Hupa, we used to talk Indian together

haya:ł
q'ut
mine:jixomił

and then, after a while

ch'e:nate:de:tł'-te-mił

when they're going to leave

da'a:kilaw
niha
'a:k'iwlaw
nohwa'te:la
'aht'ing
haya:ł
'a:ya'de:n'

he started digging through the paper, started handing them out to us all, and then they said

"wa:ninya:
'ung?"
ya:whił-ch'ide:n'
"wa:ninya:
'ung?"

"did you pass?" they asked me, "did you pass?

haya:ł
dungwho'
ch'iłkit
whiwung
xa'e:-wiłtsa:s
yo:w-xw
haya:ł

and then they grabbed it and yanked it away from me (the report card)

ch'inehł'e'n
'aht'ing

they all looked at it

me:lah
hay
'a:xol-ch'iden'

some of the kids said

"q'ut
do:ng'
wa'ningya-xola:n"
haya:ł
ting
ło'-xiwinse'n
'a:ya'de:n'

"it looks like she passed!" and they all laughed, and they said,

"hay
'e:ng'
do:ng'
k'iye
na:ya:newdile'n-te
na:tł'a'
noona'xonehłte:n-e:-te"

"as for her, when we come back again (next year), they're going to move her back"

"diywho'
do:-ch'ohłts'it
hay
nehe
diywho'
'o:ya:dilts'it-q'"

"she doesn't know the things that we know"

haya:ł
do:-ch'o:yahłts'it
hay
xontah-ding
whe
'e:ng'
hay
'a:k'iwlaw
niwh'e:n-ne'in

they didn't know that as for me, I had been studying at home

haya:ł
q'ut
hayi-xw
te:syay

and then, that's the way it went

mine:jixomił
k'iye
na:tehłdida:wh
'a:k'iwlaw-ne:yl'e'n
k'iye
na:whdiya

and then school started again, and we went back to school

haya:ł
'a:ya'de:n'
hay
na:k'idil
"hay
'e:ng'
ch'in
hayo:w
na:tł'a'
no:na'xonehłtin-te"

and then they said, those walking around (at recess), "they're going to move her back"

"diywho'
do:-ch'ohłts'it"
ch'in
"jahda
na:lte'
xwa
sile'n-te"

"she doesn't know anything," they said, "the work will be too hard for her"

haya:ł
q'ut
diywho'-ji
'a:ya:kidilah
haya:ł

and then we wrote some things

ła:n-xw
'unte
'aya:'ilah
haya:ł
miq'it
'a:kidilaw
haya:ł
mine:jixomił

(the teacher) he wrote a lot of assignments on the board, an we wrote things down, and then

nahding
xokyay
no:nt'ik'-minyay-mił

at the end of two weeks

'a:ya'de:n'

they said ...

'a'de:n
hay
no'dinił'a'-ch'iłchwe

and then the teacher said

"de
do'n
yehya'winde:tł-te
xixiy-xe
nahnin
ningya:-te"

"two boys are going to come in and you will go with them"

whił-ch'iden'
haya:ł
"hayo:w
me'-ya:ng'ay
diywho'-ji
me'-silay
...

she said to me, "the desk (that which you sit in) with stuff in it ...

...
na:ya'te:s'a:n-te
haya:ł
hay
miq'eh
tingya'-ne'
haya:ł
de:di
'a:k'iwlaw
tiliwh-ne'"

... they're going to take it for you, follow it and take your papers with you"

"haya:l
hay
yehwingya:-ding
hayah
xowaliwh-ne'
hay
miningxa't'e:n'
q'ung
ts'isle'n-te"

"where you go in, give him your papers, to (the person) that will be your new teacher"

"xa'
do'ong"
haya:ł
q'ut
yeh-ya:nde:tł'
xixiy-xe

I said "okay," and then the boys came in

nahnin
hayahujit
ya:yeywing'a:n
hay
miq'it-ts'isday
miq'it-wilchwe:n-ne'in
diywho'-me'-yeh-na'liwh

... two of them. and then they picked up the desk (what you sit on), what is made for putting stuff in

hayahujit
xo-q'eh
ya:te:se:ya:

and then I followed them

de
de
je:nah-ch'ing'

and then up ...

...
je:nah-ch'ing'
na:ła'
dah-whe:yay

... and then I went up one (grade)

haya:ł
hayah
yeh-whe:yay
'a:k'iwlaw
xowa:nelay

and then I went in and gave the papers to the teacher

hayah
'a:k'iwlaw
ne:ył'e'n

so I went to school there (in 8th grade)

haya:ł
hayo:w
me:lah
'a:ya'n
min'day'-q'

and as for some of the kids out there (out in the playground) they said

"hay
'e:ng'
do'n
do:-xoling
wa'na:wh"
haya:ł

"as for her, she's not going to pass the 8th grade"

"(xwe:
'unt)
xwe:-na:yundilxe'-te"

"we're going to finish before her"

haya:ł
ya'ne'
min'day'-q'

and then they say outside

haya:ł
whina:sela:
xosing?

they were making fun of me

haya:ł
hay
'a:nahdiyaw
hayah
ch'inła:t-mił
nana:ła'-ch'ing'
dah-whe:yay

and then when that term went by, I went to another level

haya:ł
je:nah
din-ding?

and then I was in a higher class (9th grade)

wane:yay-e:
xolung

it turned out I had passed to the next grade

hayah-wint'e
do:-ło'-na:xosing?
hay
na:mitł'a'-ding
haya:ł
q'ut
hayah

and then after that they didn't laugh anymore

te:se:yay
minłung-ding-miwah-na:ła'
'ułtsah

so I went along until I hit 11th grade

'a:k'iwlaw
ne:ył'e'n
haya:ł

I studied

na'wa:-ne'in
k'iwinya'a:n

there used to be around an Indian

kiłkit
'a:'unt'e
Bill
Quinby
xolye
hayi
xwa,
hayi
xwa

he was a policeman, Bill Quinby was his name. For him ...

diywho'-ji
łe'te:lay
haya:ł
xwa
na'diwilachwa'n
hay

for him they brought things together (gifts) and had a big dinner

hay
do:-na:'isdile'n-te
q'ut
me'niłxe'
xowh
do:ng'
nahdiminłung-ding
me:nundiy

that he's not gonna be (working) anymore, he retired, after what must have been 20 years

kiłkit
'a'unt'e-xw
hayah

he was a policeman

ła:n
ch'iningyay
ła'ay-xw
q'ut

lots of people came, and then

hayi-xwe
whunchwing-ne'in
hay
whita'-wilchwin-ne'in
'aht'ing
yate:se:de:tł'
hayah-ch'ing

so my late mother, my late stepfather, (and me), we all went there

haya:ł
q'ut
ning'usde:tł'
diywho'

they started dancing

milimil
diwilwa:wh
diywho'
k'iwiyul
tangwho'
'unłung
diywho'
dah-ya'te:xa:n
diywho'-ji

instruments were playing, all kinds of food, they set up a whole lot in bowls

ta:wna'n
xonsił-ding
ta:wna'n-wilchwe:n-tah
diywho'
haya:ł
q'ut

lots of drinks, sodas (summer drinks), all kinds of drinks

xa'e'te:de:tł'
ch'iniwint'ik'
ya'k'iwinya'n
diywho'
'a:da:-no:kiłe:
xiwinse'n
me'
haya:ł
q'ut
ya:k'iwidiya'n

they were all in a line, piling stuff on their (own) plates, and we all ate also

hayahujit
hay
na:mitł'a'ding
ning'usde:tł'
ła'ay-q'ut
ting
'a:kidyaw
(łeen--)

they danced (partner dancing), they really went at it

ting
ts'eh
ya:xone:ył'e'n
haya:ł
ting
we:syo'
haya:ł
de
hay
whunchwing-ne'in
...

I was really enjoying watching them and I really liked it, and then I realized that my mother ...

...
'e:ng'
hay
whita'-whilchwe:n
na:y
min'day'-q'
diywho'
ta:ya'dina:n

... and my stepfather, they were drinking outside

haya:ł
mine:jixomił
yeh-na:ya:'undił

and then after a while they come back in

mine:jixomił
ch'e:na:ya'indil-e:
whe
'e:ng'
ya:'iwh'a'

after a while they go back outside, as for me, I just sit there

mine:jixomił
'a'de:ne'

after a while, she said (my mother)

"min'day'
ch'e:na:ndahwh-ne'
haya:ł
de:di
'e:ng'
ch'ina:n
jahda
ła:n
hay-de:di"

"go back outside," she told me, "as for these (people), they're (drinking) too much"

"ta:dinung
xosin"
haya:ł
ch'in
"hayi-ma:n
digyung-me'
do:-me:diwhdin
sinday"

"there's drinking going on, so I don't want you to stay in here" she said

haya:ł
ch'in
"nahł'its-me'
k'e:w
na:sinda'"

she said "you stay hidden in the car"

ch'e:na'whinehłte:n
nahł'its-me'
haya:ł
mene:q'

she took me back outside, in the car, and then in the back (of the car)

diywho'
dah-sehłkyo:s
whe
na'k'iwiłxut'

she covered me up with something (like a blanket) that was back there

"digyun-ch'ing'
me'-sinda'n
haya:ł
ch'in
ch'e:na:ya:ne'ił-de'
q'ut
naya:te:se:'ił-te"

"you stay right here, when we come out, we're going to leave"

haya:ł
hayah
ya:we:se:'a'
mine:jixomił
q'ut
mił-na:whiwiłwe'
whikiwingwa'n-te
ye:se:le'n

I sat down there in the seat. After a while, I started to get sleepy, I drifted into sleep off and on, I'm about to go to sleep, it seemed like

'ungya'
na'te:tse
hay
no:na:witse
na'te:tse

all of a sudden the door opened

ła'ay-xw
q'ut
yeh-ch'iwilto'n
sile'n
mene:q'
hay
dah-siwhte:n-ding

all of a sudden he sort of jumped in there in the backseat where I was laying down

de
de
do:-yeh-na:k'iwidqits'

I come to realize, the door wasn't locked

haya:ł
hay
whiq'os-kin'-ding
...

and then, by my neck ...

...
xok'ya:ng'ay
no'ninta:n-mił
'a:whił-ch'ide:ne'

... and then, putting his arm across my throat, he told me

"do:
ch'in
who'
'a:diwine'
heh
do:-widwhil-heh
ch'in
hay-de:di"

"don't say nothing" he said, "don't yell or nothing," he said,

hay
ch'in
"hay-de:di
wingwhił-de'"
ch'in

"if you yell," he said,

yunisehłkis-te
ch'in
hay-de:di
haya:ł

I'm gonna start hitting you, he said

haya:ł
hayah
na'whislo:s

then, right there, he raped me

diywho'
whits'e:k'iwilt'ow-ne'in
ch'idiwiłtsa:s
diywho'

everything, what used to be my underwear, he ripped it off

'aht'ing-xw-ne'in
'a'whilaw-mił
ch'iwhiwiłwe'-sile'n

he's roughing me around, showing me how tough he is

hayahujit
me'niłxe'-mił
'a:na:whił-ch'ide:ne'

and then, when he got done with that, he told me

"dangwho'-ch'ing'
do:-xoł-xolik-heh
ne'
hay-de:di
'undiyaw"

"don't tell nobody about what you did"

ch'in
'a'de:n'-te
"hay
'e:ng'
me'de:nde'n
hayi-xw
'a'te:n
haya:ł
ch'in
xowilik-de'"

"if you tell, then I will say, 'she wanted to do this'"

"hay
nichwo:"
ch'in
"xose:sehłwe:n-te"
haya:ł
ch'in
"hay
nis'
q'ina'
(xose'--)
ya:xosehłkis-te
xwe:łwe'-te"
ch'in

"your grandmother," he said, "I will kill her. your uncle too, I'm going to beat him up"

"hayi-xw
'a:'diwen'-de'"

"if you tell anybody that"

haya:ł
q'ut
xwe:ne:sgit
haya:ł
xo:'
do:-'a:diwhne'
haya:ł

and then I was afraid of him, so I never said anything

mine:jixomił
je:nah
ningde:tł'
hay
whunchwing-ne'in

after a while, they came out, my poor old mother [with my uncle]

haya:ł
do:
hay
q'ina'
ya:xonehłwil'
nehwa:n
haya:ł

as for them, they also seemed kind of drunk

xoh
do:-'a:diwhin
do:-xoł-whilik
ting
ts'eh
xwe:whgit
(eexw)

I didn't tell them, I really felt afraid of him

hay
whichwo:-ne'in
ting
ya:xowhyo'-ne'in
hay
whis'-ne'in
haya:ł

my poor old grandmother, and my poor old uncle, I loved them very much

do:-me:diwhdin
dungwho'
xo:'-ye
'a:ya'xoł'e:n

I didn't want anybody doing bad things to them / IMPF!, ?

haya:ł
hayi-ma:n
xo:'-e
do:-'a'de:ne'

and then, for that reason, I didn't mention anything (about what happened)

hayah
wint'e
de
na'tehsdiy
yo:w-xw
k'iłch'ixa:n'awh-ch'ing'
na'way

and then, from there turns out he left and went back to the service (where they were fighting)

mine:jixomil
na'ndiy
haya:l
hay
na'ndiy
'a:whił-ch'ide:n'
whixa:na'te:ng'e'n
sile'n
'a:whił-ch'iden'
hay

after a while, he came back from the service, and he told me he had been looking for me, and he told me

(tang--)
"hay
'undiyaw
ch'in
hayi-ma:n"

"what you did, for that reason"

"hayi-xwe
wha'ut
sile'n-te
dungwho'-ch'ing'
do:-xoling
xwa'ut
'iliw
dungwho'-ch'ing'
do:-xoling
me'de:din"

"you got to become my wife, you're not going to be somebody else's wife, nobody not going to want you"

haya:ł
ch'in

and then he said

"'a:den'-te
dungwho'
na:łiwung
xowe:silyo'-de'
...

"if you like somebody else, I will say ...

...
hay
'e:ng'
'a:'n
hayi-xw
'a:diyaw
haya:ł

... she did that"

"do:-xoling
dungwho'
na:łiwung
nich'ilyo'"

"nobody else will like you"

haya:ł
hayi-ma:n
xo:'-a
do:
'a:diwhine.
haya:ł
yiwidin-de'
hay
xwa'ut
se:le'n

for that reason, I never said nothing, after a while, I finally became his wife

xosta:n-ding
me:nundiyay-e:
xoł-ts'iwhda:wh
t'ehxich
nahx
sile'n

six years passed, I had two girls

haya:ł
wilkya:n
se:le'n
dink'i-ding

and I became pregnant four times

nahding
ch'iwhiwiłwe'.
ła'
ya'whiłte:n

two times he beat me up during those six years. One time he picked me up ...

miq'it-ts'isday
nikya:w
sa'a:n-ne'in

there was a big couch that used to be sitting there

hay
mitis
k'e'wiłtsa:s
hay
'aht'ing
whikyun-k'isya:t
haya:ł

he threw me down over it, and I had a miscarriage

hay
ne'in
ch'e:na:ya'niłte:n
hay
sa'a:n-ne'in
me'-ya'dincha:t
ya'dehLts'e-ding

that used-to-be, they brought it back out at the hospital that used to sit there.

haya:ł
hayah
k'ima:w-ch'iłchwe
(ch'ił)
ts'ista:-ne'in

and then the doctor he was there

ting
ch'ingkya:w
haya:ł
hayah
yeh-ch'iwhiłte:n

he was a big guy, and he took me in there (to the emergency room)

'a:xoł-ch'ide:ne'
hay-de:di

and then (the doctor) told (my husband)

"duxo'-ye
'a:xolah-xola:n
me'sinda-ming'-ne'"

"you should be in jail"

"mije'e:din
sile'n-te-ne'in
se:siłwe:n-e:
hay-de:di"

"you have killed what was going to be a baby"

xosta:n-ding
mitis
no:nundilah
xola:n-ne'in
hay
mije'e:din
haya:ł

it seemed like more than six months (in the womb), that baby ...

hay
ts'isehłwe:n
haya:ł
hay
na:mitł'a'-ding
ła'
k'iye
t'ehxich
sile'n

... that (baby) he killed. And then after that, again, I had a girl [Debbie]

haya:ł
ch'iwhe'iłwe'
ła:n-xw-ne'in
'a:whił-ch'ide'ine'

and then he used to beat me up and say all kinds of things

'a:nawhił-ch'ide'ine
"yinesesdilwe:n-te
yo:wi-nuq"

and then he would always tell me, we're going to kill you over there to the east [mineshafts at Gray's Flat]

yineh
yaniwdilte:n-te
diywho'
'unłung-xw-ne'in
'a:whił-ch'ide'ine'

"we're going to put you in there"--all kinds of things he used to say to me

ła:n-xw-ne'in
ch'iwho'iwhe'

he always called me all kinds of names

haya:ł
hay
na:mitł'a'-ding
mine:jixomił
sa'a-ding
sile'n

and then after that, after a long time ...

xosta:n-ding
me:nundiyay
na:mitł'a'-ding

... six years had gone by [since our marriage], and then

yo:w-xw
yida:ch'ing
t'ehxich
ła:n
ningyay
k'ina'-tah
xomił

a lot of girls came up from Weitchpec way, like Yuroks, [because of a flood] and then

hayi
xowh
do:ng'
ting
yayxowehsyo'

I guess those (girls), they really started to like him

hay
xoł-naya:sde:tł'
hayi-ma:n-ding
whiky'a:
na'indiy
haya:ł

he used to go around with them. Because of that, he went away from me

hay
na:mitł'a'-ding
'e:ng'
niwhong-xw
nana:se:ya'
dungwho'

after that, as for me, I started having a life of my own, someone ...

...
na:łiwung
xoł-na:ya'
haya:ł
hay
'e:ng'
niwhong-xw
'a'whił'e:n

... I married a different person, he did me good